My Emotional Struggle of Getting Pregnant
It is spring, but the weather is still cold. I am sitting by the window and trying to soak in the sun. The sun’s warmth on my face feels like a luxury. Nature has always been my biggest inspiration, and it has also acted as a catalyst for me. It brings out several emotions, makes me ponder, and then entices to dig deeper into my soul. Seeing my son shining in the sun made me feel a little nostalgic. It reminded me of the time when my husband and I were trying to get pregnant, and every month I would wait for it to happen. We waited month after month to get pregnant. This is the story of my struggle to get pregnant.
Excruciating wait of getting pregnant
I still remember there actually came the point; the only topic of discussion between my girlfriends and me was, “when will I get pregnant?” Asking for tips (as if I was doing something wrong as if there is any hidden secret to it.) I remember overthinking, hiding how stressed or sad I was most of the time. I don’t have the right words to express that feeling. It wasn’t as if I was looking at other people’s kids with longing or not enjoying my life at all. Everything was beautiful. I was busy working. We have good friends, and we used to chill together. So, work hard, and party harder was pretty much the motto we were living by. But there were these moments where I used to feel something is missing. It was more like a calling.
Stress Adds to The Wait of Getting Pregnant
It’s simple when you have too much on your platter; something has got to give. I remember everyone telling me, “enjoy when you make love; otherwise, baby won’t happen.” Another advice I always received was a “stay “stress-free. Now, I have a question if you are full time working married woman who lives two hours one side drive away from her house, how exactly can she be stress-free? Anyways, I tried everything, but the answer was still NO.
On the other hand, it was as if everyone around me was getting pregnant. Oh boy!!! You know that feeling of helplessness, where you finally realize control is an illusion, it was that moment for me. The whole idea of planning our lives, education, job, car, marriage, house, or anything else you think you are planning, but it’s a myth. Things are always happening when they are meant to happen. We tend to plan every minute of our lives. Moments like these humble you, and you realize nothing… absolutely nothing is in our control.
I still remember a friend of mine, who was also trying for long said: “a soul will enter this world when the right is time.” And she couldn’t have been more right about it. Actually, now I think of it all cliches mentioned above are correct. There was a sudden change in our lives.
Just when I was giving up hope after trying for two years, there was a drastic change in our lives. We shifted the country, as he was transferred. So, all of a sudden, a hand brake was pulled in my busy life. We decided I will take six months break before I go back to work. So, here I was in a new land. Absolutely relaxed and totally enjoying myself. That’s when I got pregnant.
If you are struggling to get pregnant, try to create a stress-free environment for yourself. Babies are made out of love; any sort of tension or stress can delay the process. I know it is easy said than done, But I have personally experienced it, and there is no other way about it. You have to make changes and consciously cut down the stress in your life. Set priorities and prioritize yourself. Enjoy each other and love each other in the purest form of the word. It’s then only miracles will happen.
And mommies let’s not forget the best way of being stress free is … keep BREATHING
(This is my personal experience and in no way any medical suggestion. I am not an expert on infertility)
Mum Mum Ma
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