I decided to take a sabbatical. All my professional dreams and future goals were put on break. Why? Because I wanted to live the BIGGEST dream that I ever dreamt. Because, I wanted to see my infant grow into an intriguing, curious and fun loving toddler, hence, sabbatical was the best idea I have ever had.
I wanted to wake up snuggling with him, without worrying about reaching office on time. I wanted to bask in his cuddles and toothless smiles. I didn’t want to be in hurry of being some where or do something. I didn’t want to come back home exhausted with either work or bummed out due to office stress, so SABBATICAL it was. I wanted to see him touch his toes for the first time. I didn’t want to miss when he crawled for the first time. I wanted to pay attention on his first words instead of constantly checking my phone for important emails.
Hold him, snuggle him, cuddle him, love him, adore him, shower him with zillion kisses and then some more without worrying about answering to any boss is the biggest reason why I took this sabbatical.
From working 12 hours a day to spending leisure time with my cute little heart, the life has been an amazing journey so far. I will be eternally grateful to the universe that I was given this opportunity and I was able to spend this time with my little munchkin.
I have finally started preparing myself. Its time to say bye-bye to this “sabbatical” and now am gearing up to join the adult world again. Even though, lessons that I have learnt during my sabbatical, no job, no college can teach. Having a baby has truly taught me the meaning of leaving in the moment.
Being a first time mom, my mind is flooded with questions. Am I ready to leave my baby in stranger’s care for most part of the day? Will I be able to balance my work with my baby and husband? Will I be able to do justice to all the roles in my life? Am I going back to work too soon? I don’t think there is not any right or wrong answer to these questions. I guess it comes with the territory of Mommyhood.
No amount of love is enough, no amount of attention you give to your child is enough and no matter how much time you spend with your little one is enough.
Though I do realize that some where this blissful sabbatical has to end. I have to go back to being a full time working mom. His every month birthday leaves me and my hubby amazed, how time passes away in a blink. He was so tiny and fragile when we brought him home. We were even scared to hold him. Now, he crawls like a master and explores every corner of house. Soon, he will be running around and jumping, playing with us. Talking our ears off. The thrill of seeing him grow comes with a pang of pain that every part of his littleness is a fleeting moment, which again bring me back to same feeling. I am so glad I took this sabbatical. This one year by far has been the best phase of my life and I want to engrave that on stone.
Mum Mum Ma – Loving Mommyhood 🙂
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